Stop and stare

From the day I decided to loosen things up, I should have known better than to keep looking back and to keep searching for what I've lost. Moving on requires a tonne of courage and determination on my part while keeping afloat for all my present commitments. But I ain't losing this anyway. My family and friends will keep me going on for this fight.

Having said that, I guess I'll never step into a relationship so hastily albeit the supposed readiness again. We can be bezzz friends first. Hee.

I need all of you to stay with me. It won't be long before I pick up again!

Still a happy bubbly girl despite it all because I think life is great and there's so much more awaiting me. Not gonna allow yesterday to take up too much of today.

Today marks the birthday of possibly one of the bezztest most awesome person in my life. Happy birthday Shirly Wurly Sugarpiety!

(That's her and her boyfee. I'm posting this picture because I felt genuinely glad for this girl when I saw the way she smiled at the sight and presence of her boy. Please stay happy always. Hehe.)

I've said all that I wanna say in that card dear girl. I'm just thankful for you.

The only way is through

Big thanks and hugs to jiahui and alvin for anchoring my courage yesterday.

Ching ching.

I earned a keep of almost 400 dollars in 3 days hehehe.

Whatever happened to to NTU?
It dropped 101 places in the Times Higher Education World University Ranking... Hahaha.

Tarry and wait.

Forever, zeeee author of my salvation!

Luuuurve

Let's drown ourselves in Erdinger and dance the night away~

Buzz buzzz

Been so swarmed with school and work lately. Never felt any busier than this.. But I might be screwing my own body upside down. A typical day will begin at 6am and end at about 3am. In a nutshell, I survive with barely 3 hours of sleep each day.
But I'm getting a lot of interactions with the Caucasian expatriates. Especially the Germans. It's really good exposure to prepare me for the secular world.
(The pay is enticing too)

Next week will be an exciting week! Charging up.

I love my family hehehe, and I like my new found soulmate.

Ohhhh~ what a glorious day.

My granny just called and she made some really hilarious yet comforting comment on the break-up. She's one funny grandma.

Anyway, I roped myself in for the Nike City 10k together with a few other monkeys. But I'm kinda like the only tomboy girl who's so hyperactive and forever on the go. Got the Nike band and it's acting like my trainer these days. The longest I ran thus far for a run was the 12km stint which I did on Sunday. The rest of my runs are between 8-11km.

I'm only able to go beyond the upper most limit of 11km when my body's endorphin production leads to the publicized effect of a runner's high. It takes over my threshold completely, so I'm able to continue running even when my knees are completely worn out. This sounds sick, but nothing beats the sense of satisfaction after the run. It beats the pain and tiredness hands down, completely.

But oh well, the late night suppers those monkeys always pull me out for are defeating the purpose of my runs. You should look at the amount of food those twits order.. Just scary.
With Ryan's coolcar, we experienced the utmost hilarious kicks of a dancing car. And crashing Mustafa at 3am is the worst choice ever.. Laughed too hard, talked too much, made too much noise, got punked by the indian salesman (HAHAHA). Withdrawal symptoms= Stomach cramp, face cramp, a big tummy.

I'll walk this walk.

Today I thought too much, looked over my shoulders too much, searched too hard and cried so much. But I promised someone that today will be the last day I feel depressed and lovelorn.

Tomorrow, I'll smile like your little miss sunshine and continue showering laughters and nonsense into your life. I'll keep up with my funny dances and annoying noises. Come tomorrow, I'll stand up strong again.

Being Christian doesn't make you good. If any, it only makes you look good on the outside.

The question that will probably annoy the hell out of me right now during this period will be, "What happened?" I know people are concerned, but if you really mean good for me, the only thing I need now is to know that I've got your back and that I'm not fighting alone in this.

That apart...
I love my family. I love how Mom and Dad's stupid sense of humour cheers me up, my Uncle's encouragements that never fail, my Sister's love and craziness.. and of course everybody else in the family.

And the friends I'm counting on to bring me out of this period, I'm truly grateful for all the love care and laughters. This is especially for the funny bunch in school, you twits are just out of the world!! Knowing them could possibly be the best thing in life.

And as the most cliche saying goes.. Never judge a book by it's cover.

Today marks the end, the end of the 2 years. I'll keep those memories somewhere close.

A Mommy's love.

Mom: "This is part of your growing up process, girl. From this, will emerge a stronger and better girl."

Mooncakes, me likey.

It's not even Mid-autumn yet and my home is already loaded with 3 viciously yummy boxes of mooncakes. Heheh, I'm a happy gurrrrl with so many mooncakes.

This is from Swissotel, Snowskin Champagne Truffle and Chocolate Ganache. Perfect tangy concoctions for Mid-Autumn. Fills your mouth with loadsa awesome aroma. Compelling enough to entice me for yet another luscious bite after each.

Don't let the mystic and grandeur lure of this box fool you into believing that it's a box containing my blings. Look on.

This hails from Tower Club, the nation's premier private business club. The flamboyance of where it hails from is by itself enticing enough for me to sink my teeth into one of these traditional mooncakes. And of course, some floral tea to go along with it. A perfect sweet treat for teatime.

The difference between letting go and giving up.

"Some think it's holding on that makes one strong; sometimes it's letting go."

When letting go makes you stronger and tougher, it's when you know it's time you face up to it affront. There's no use fighting to stay through anymore, because we are all aware of how fragile this is. Even if we struggle to hold on now, the lesson will come someday somewhere somehow. It's just a matter of time.

Econs is draining me out exponentially. I finally know what people mean when they say Econs at undergrad level is different. It's like wow, a whole new subject albeit the familiarity of a few techincal terms here and there. I'm gonna plough through this nonetheless! Flower power.

The bunch of monkeys in school are just my daily source of entertainment apart from the horrors of the subjects. They make me laugh at every single shet. Can't wait for the year twos to come back to school! Horrendously fun-loving people. Loving thiz.

(AT THIS MOMENT, DAD & MOM SAID OKAY TO MY 3D2N WHITE WATER RAFTING COURSE REQUEST!!!!!! EXHILARATED!)

Oh and yes, I'm starting physiotherapy for my spine soon! A really expensive therapy....

Off to mug! Love you all babies.

(To the candybaby I'm supposed to meet on Monday: You're always on my mind! )

Butt cracking

We survived almost 8 hours of cycling heheh, no joke!

I share a love-hate relationship with cycling now. But it was suchhhh an awesome and yummy night. Loving the zeal!!

Fun mania.

I can't reiterate this enough...
I love my friends I love my friends I love my friends. Keeping my fingers crossed that our Redang (this year for cheapo's sake) and Tokyo (next year for richer's sake) plans come to pass.
I adore my school and the people man!!

We eat, we drink, we make merry. But we study.

I brought these to school for my biggies, and they were a hit.

The hustles and bustles of school is just overwhelming. I weighed in this morning and was shock to see that I've shed a good 2kg within a week. This is just not a good sign.. And my spine seems to be wearing out. Need to get back to my orthopaedist soon.

Zooming off..