I really really really want to run.

When you're asleep, I'll take the wheel.

2010 is drawing to a close and it's time for some goal settings again! I've always believed that since people always call it the New Year resolutions, the resolutions should naturally be treated with a dosage of firm determination. As cliche as it sounds, but easier said than done.

I wonder how many of us do actually stick by the resolutions dutifully and see themselves through it. It's not that simple a task especially if you're confronted with unplanned turmoils throughout the year. But yet again, some people just have that amazing capability for feats that most of us deem overboard. And I hold ardor admiration for these sort of species, with utmost love. ( But I have to make a disclaimer here. These people are mere human too, so I know they do fail and turn dejected at times.)

Dear friend(s), if 2010 didn't treat you most kindly, I would really pray and keep my fingers crossed for you that 2011 will crown you with some unexpected glory and surprises! No qualms about that for I'm sure each year will only get better because the passing of a year means that you've been moulded stronger and better.

And ultimately, we serve a God who is constantly fighting for us! As sons and daughters, it's only justifiable that we surge forward valiantly for His glory aye.

As for me, I'm going to make 2011 the most memorable and fabulous year yet! First and foremost- no more banishing of self-esteem & no more being a crybaby (I hope this comes to pass. Haha!). Shall do up a proper sheet of resolutions and goals soon!

That lil' flame which will burn on

Christmas this year's atypical because unlike the past 2 years, I'm a singleton this year now. Well, it can't be helped that I do feel a lil envious when I brush my shoulders past couples here and there as I strut down the streets on Christmas day.

But I beg to differ if you're thinking that I must be lovelorn. I'm still very much relishing the perks of being boyfriend-less! Hehe. I have awesome friends around me y'know. These people who will only make me smile and laugh more than often, they personify the shiny tingling and joy-inducing Christmas lights to my Christmas this year.

Received quite a handful of cards this year and I really love the thought! Especially the handmade ones. Coupled with some (unexpected) gifts. It's tugging at my conscience that I didn't even get anything in exchange for these people ):

If you know who you are, I really appreciate you and your love!

I also had an awesome Christmas party with my sweetest OG 4 and counterparts. It was such a crazy night! I only managed to turn in at 6am in the morning and made it to church again with 2 hours of sleep. What a sleep deprived Christmas! Albeit all the fun and heartening times.

This year, I handcrafted the most cards I ever did in a single occasion. If you received my card, it can only mean that I really cherish you and the fact that you left footprints in my life.

These are some of the few that I've yet to give out yet! All hand drawn hor! :P

I'm already looking forward to Christmas next year now! I wonder what phenomenal changes will there be yet again. God is forever on the move.

Till then!

Something noteworthy

Last night, a friend told me this. I thought it was really encouraging, to me at least.

If you honor the little that God has bestowed to you, be sure that He will multiply it when He sees that you're worthy and ready to take on more.

But if you were to abuse and take that portion for granted, then that's when you lose out.

Note to self: Never belittle the little and grumble over it. Take on the chance to let God move and multiply what you own.

Because there is His sovereignty

As the year draws to an end, it also marks my 5 years in church. I consider it a significant milestone because this year is the year I found my concrete identity in Christ. In fact, it's only recently that I got hold of it.

I passed the rest of the years with ambiguity, it was all equivocal because I entrusted my faith alongside other hosts most of the time. Like a parasite? So for the majority of the time, I was lost and unsound. When all along, it should only be God & I coupled with some other relevant people (who matters) /things.

I discovered a whole new abyss of values and principalities annotating to Praying, the Word and the Jesus' kind of lifestyle. It convicted me to pray more, read more and transform more.

With this, I know I'm not the same old me anymore. I've moved on and I love where I am now. Of course, I know there will always be a better me somewhere along this journey; the 'me' that God has intentionally crafted.

All in all.
Thank you Lord for your redeeming grace and everlasting mercy. Without You, I'm nothing.

Ribbons, confetti and wrappers

I honestly adore life right now. I turn in every single night looking forward to tomorrows. I prance around every day clad in smiles and laughters.

There's no way for me alone to contain the glee to myself. That's when my friends fill in :)


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I'm not the kind who will strap my life solely against the pillars of my church. The idea of having my life revolve largely around the church doesn't sound the least bit appealing to me.
Disclaimer: It's not that I don't love the House, definitely not.

I wanna be a contortionist. Figuratively, contortionist of my life. Life is too short to contain any regrets. Regrets are the worst mishaps.

I'm sure God has zero intentions of coping every one of His child within the four walls of the church. And I presume that I should be linearly thrusted towards the marketplace sector?

I like myself just the way I am.


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For glory for honor

I did a run to raise funds for the Singapore Red Cross last Sunday.

Came in fourth but I thought I would have clocked a much faster timing if it wasn't for my badly inflamed nerves. My orthopedist had dropped a decree which disallows me to run or get tangled with any sort of rigorous sports. I went ahead with the race anyway! For a worthy cause.

I can't wait to be on the roads treading the distances again.

De-humantize

I choose to see the all good in people. But as much as choice permits, there's always this lil' leeway which works in the opposition direction of that choice. Formally, it might be known as the wayward side of humanity. Afterall, humanity is a complicated idea ain't it?

On my own, I think these opposing notions as malicious intents (or is it a motiveless malignity?) of the human mind driven by the need to conform to societal norms or what is deemed socially acceptable. Spiritually, we call this the inputs of the devil.

I still believe that human is kind-natured. And I don't wanna doubt that. The world will be so ugly if everyone chooses only to keep the ugly in sight and overlook the goods.
No one is perfect, but these imperfections can mean beauty in another being. By this, I'm referring to the human's innate ability to accomodate and to accept flaws.


Imagine the union of a man and a woman. What makes this union beautiful is their capacity and love for each other. They choose to stand against each other's imperfections and contrast it with a big accepting heart. The imperfections which allows them to display true undying love. Love that is beautiful and whole.


Yet again, it isn't easy to be all graceful and merciful. Only Jesus has the unlimited and bottomless ability to. But for now, I'm choosing to remain as big-hearted as I can be.

Kindness is God's language of love manifested thru humans to humans.

His hands' all over me.


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