Look up.

When all else fails, God nevers and he never will fail!
Hurrrrrah! Let's go.

Blind, not.

"This is me, and I'm interested in you enough to show you my flaws with the hope that you may embrace me for all that I am but, more importantly, all that I'm not."

I get so near yet I get nowhere.

Honestly, I'm beginning to loathe this state of my heart and mind. It's like a perpetual rite of passage that goes on and on. And all the mundane, boggling and painful recounts start the moment I get out of bed each morning. I have no idea where this is leading me to.


I'm tired to the very core of my being. I have so many questions, so many doubts and so many why-s ringing on the inside of me. Yet I don't know what I should do with them.

This space is increasingly becoming an outlet for the let-off of my emotions.

Bad.

SHAT

I feel like a downright silly shit now. Should have went abroad for uni when I was given a choice to 2 years ago. I should have been more courageous >:(

I wanna board in the UK.

Emotions are highly contagious stuff man! They literally diffuse into you. Whatchya think?
Each time I know people I care for are down, I totally go down down down together with them. No idea if this spells goodness but I reckon it just runs in me.

So much that I don't even think for myself sometimes actually.

I want eweryboraye around me to be safe and happy. Can?

Ah byyytch.

"I'm good, but not an angel. I do sin, but I'm not the devil. I am just a small girl in a big world trying to find someone to love."

I miss all my friends so friggin' much.
I miss going to school (actually it's missing the hype over ECs whenever they are in sight).
I miss just sitting walking and prancing around doing nothing but happy as ever.
I miss being city venture, tchoukball and every sort of crazy adventures.
I miss laughing over everything, laughing at nothing and just smiling into the air because like is so good.

I CAN'T WAIT TILL THE DARN EXAMS ARE OVER.

Going to play till I forget my surname.

I HATE WAITING.

OH GOOD LORD, I MISS MY GOOD OL' TKG DAYS SO MUCH )':

Risks of expecting.

I want to.

Stop pining.

Stop looking.

Stop checking.

Stop searching.

Stop waiting.

The one thing that I need, is to be seated at Your feet.

And that will suffice.

:)

Curvy is the new black.

I think I'm of an acceptable weight to donate blood now.
BUT SCREW IT I DON'T WANNA BE 45KG! I know, I know since I'm 164cm, 45kg is really okay. But it's really not me to be 45!

Must be all the late night suppers and to top it off, I'm in no condition to work out! Hahaha okay I should stop lamenting so much and try to embrace my new-found figure.

Either that or I should embark on a diet plan which I reckon would most likely turn out to be a flop anyway. So I can't be bothered.

Full stop

I know my Saviour has conquered the grave.

A friend indeed.

What seemed like the longest and most dreary weekend in my 19 years of life had just ended. And I'm so glad it did end afterall.

It was my maiden experience of wrecking my brains so hard. It beat the crap out of me, I'm so sure it did. I never did prayed so much in my entire life, never did worried so extensively, never did felt so heavy-laden and helpless-stricken, ever before.

I am going to fix this actuality somewhere inside me and make sure it stays dormant in there. Because one day if shit ever happens again (keeping all of myself crossed it doesn't happens), I'll call this to mind to remind myself of the extraordinary strength that really lies within me.

I am so so so glad things have blown over and normality resumes.

P.s. You've made me a worrywart and I'm hell sure that you're someone I'll remember for life. Please start resting and eating well again. Restoration will come and it's here to stay :)

At Your name I know the heartache is over.

Sometimes even heroes need to be saved.

There should always be a limit, an end to everything. Nothing should last forever. Even love, but it's because love can be renewed.

If you know you're getting nowhere with what you're at, then stop and move on. Move on so that you won't eventually find yourself in too much pain that it becomes impossible to get out. Get away, get a life.

I know I can do this.

The mighty cross.

God, my intercessor and myself- we form the majority. The dark one shall have no foothold in my life. Greater things have yet to come.

Let's go now!

First class

POA just punk'd me mega. Teehee. I just scrambled my candy ass out of the exam hall. And I'm convicted that I need get my guts out and start doing a heap of accounting questions.

I reckon it shouldn't be a problem for me because there's accounting blood running thru my veins. My family is very inclined (a huge imbalance unfortunately) towards the finance, math & accounting genre. To put it bluntly, informally money-faced.

Tomorrow's math paper at 7pm. What a gross timing! But thank God someone is picking me up, I think? I'm really really tired. I need more sleep real badly
):

Zhenny ashy and josephee, please scramble out of the hall soon! I need people to keep me sane.

Even when I've got nothing at all

I don't know if this is God's promise coming to pass but I'm one hell of a heck sure that it's at least a good good thing. Since it's enough and capable of making me smile even when other things are going awry. It's what keeps me strong, keeps me on track and it's keeping me sane amidst all the other trail of bitterness.

In fact, it's beyond good. I think this is amazing stuff.

Humans, just the way we are.

I'm growing up and I'm loving every single minute of every day.